|Halfway out of the dark..
||[Dec. 31st, 2010|07:29 pm]
such a good time on my birthday
(thank you, everyone!) that going out and partying tonight just seems
somehow redundant to me.Spending a quiet New Year's Eve at home by myself for a change. I've
never done this, not once since I turned eighteen, so far as I can
remember, and it feels almost decadent to do so in a way I can't quite
explain. Also, honestly, I had |
Instead, I think I'm starting a new tradition -- since my birthday is a time
when I get gifts from other people, and Christmas is a time I focus on
giving gifts to other people -- I think New Year's is going to become
the time when I give gifts to myself. Namely, things I've been wanting
and needing and will make my life better, that I haven't managed to get
around to buying until now.
This year, it's a snazzy set of computer speakers -- one of my old
speakers died a couple years back, and I've been limping along on the
remaining speaker all this time -- and a cordless, illuminated keyboard.
See, I don't have a desk -- my computer's in the living room, with my
monitor on a laptop stand, and I lounge around on my couch while
on-line. And I've developed a bad habit of using it in the dark, and
trying to type with just the light from the monitor has been getting
increasingly tiresome. I'm curled up with the keyboard in my lap, happy
as a clam. (Not that I understand why clams are said to be particularly
I'll still be joining you all in a champagne toast at midnight, from the
comfort of home.
I haven't posted much here in a long time, not anything important, anyway.
In 2009, I had things going on in my life I didn't really want to face or
reflect on. 2010 was mainly about recovering from that, finding my bearings,
and starting to build a new life for myself. And now I've reached the end of
this year and I want to look back on it, and I realize I miss having a written
record like this one to help with that. So I think I'll be posting a little
more from now on.
This New Year's Eve finds me looking forward to the coming year with hope and light and
enthusiasm, in a way I haven't felt at New Year's in a long time. I can only wish the
same to you and yours, and I'll see you all again when the calendar turns the page.
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